 Wow. What an extraordinary few days. Last week I was anticipating an upcoming interview with Google, and today I am embarking on an entirely new venture altogether. I am going to finish my book. I am going to expand my blog. I am going to dedicate myself to helping those who are suffering (that's all of us) find grace and healing through vulnerability and self-expression. I am going to teach. I am going to coach. And I am going to raise my daughter in the way that feels right for me, for us. I am a million times grateful to have the resources to do this. My main fear about going back to work was putting Nova in preschool 50 hours a week. She is not yet two, and though she is a flexible and social child, I felt our relationship would suffer after I'd just figured out how to open up and accept this single parenting thing, which has me running towards instead of away from her. I know a lot of kids, kids younger than Nova, are away from their parents full time. And I know that some of them only have one parent. Parents need to work, financially we must provide for our family. But somehow I manage to find myself in a situation where the surviver's benefits we receive from social security are enough to cover our rent and fixed expenses, and give us groceries and gas money, and the other basic necessities. It's not fancy living, but it's enough. And no, I'm not saving for the future (which my parents are quick to remind me of), but I need to make this decision in the present. I gift myself this possibility. I have a window of opportunity here -- a space where the light shines in -- this moment in which we have found ourselves a new home and it feels like the road stretched out before us is beckoning: What will you make of this? Will you step into your power, follow your calling, and offer your gifts to the world? I have decided to go for it. I have so much to share. I am scared to death, but that's the whole point, isn't it? Do what you fear, and you will never fail. You can only grow. I must thank every single person who is reading this and every single person who ever read anything that I wrote. You were -- you are -- instrumental in my healing process, in my transformation, and in the courage I have to move forward. Thank you thank you THANK YOU. Let's do this. |
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